Sunday, July 15, 2012

This Week My Baby Left

Midget (who has just turned 15) left on Thursday for three months in Cambodia.  

Up until about two weeks before she left I was in denial - I did not want to think about my baby going out into the big wide world without me or her Dad by her side.  Midget will be attending school while she is in Cambodia.  It is an amazing opportunity and I would not dream of holding her back from the experience, but the selfish part of me just wants to hold her close always.  This in many ways is the first big step for her in being an independent person. 

To the person who said to me it is a bit like when they start creche - "you are emotional when you leave them but then you are alright" - I would like to say - No, it isn't like that at all - and when I left my kids for the first time at creche I lost my vision and had a huge migraine.  

I am an emotional person and so is Midget.  We cry. So on Thursday (and several days before) we were awash with tears.

Now I can still feel tears very close by and I am sure I will continue to do so the whole time she is away.

But I can also be strong.  To Midget (because I know you will read this) you are an amazing daughter, but most of all you are an amazing person.  You are a good friend, kind and gracious.  You are self motivated and incredibly talented in so many areas, but humble - you are the last one to want to be in the lime light.  You can be opinionated and strong willed and competitive, but would never put any one else down.  You feel things deeply and whilst you may not show it can be hurt easily.  You are also give the best hugs!  And you are strong too - enjoy every moment you are away - and remember we are here cheering you on!

And right now I am looking forward to October when my sister and I will be going over to Cambodia to meet up with my baby and bring her home.


Flying Blind... said...

What an amazing opportunity - she will love you for letting her go forever x

clare's craftroom said...

Wow that is a huge adventure ! What a lucky girl having such wonderful parents that have prepared her and themselves for this . I understand wanting to hold them and knowing we have to let go but it doesn't mean it's easy . Kindest thoughts to you all xxx

Jacqui said...

I remember my mum when I left Canada to move here and how she burst into tears when I gave her my house keys. She's not an outwardly emotional person so I was surprised and didn't really understand (I thought I was going for a couple years tops and here it is almost 20 years later). Now that I'm a mum I do, and I don't know how I will cope when it's my turn! I wish you both the best of luck and a wonderful time in Cambodia, I hear it's a fascinating place.

Craftysquirrel said...

First day of school was hard enough and my babe is only 2 blocks away! Cambodia is amazing and am sure your girl will have a fantastic time - lovely fabric too when you go - I went in 2004 and still have fabric in my stash waiting for the perfect project.

Leah said...

Oh hon, I can't begin to imagine how you must feel. Hopefully the time will fly by and then you can be with your lovely girl again. Thank goodness for technology - being able to keep in touch in so many ways these days. Not like the old days when we travelled and we only had letters to keep us going.

PS: I am absolutely loving the cushions I made with your stunning fabric!!


glitz said...

Loving and letting go is the hardest thing to do, and only time makes things easier.
I'm sooo looking forward to our trip in October! Think of the reunion you two will have. Big hugs xxx